I started this crazy diet on June 4, 2015.
Today is July 6, 2015. .
What have I eaten? Well, that's a much smaller list than what I haven't. Here's what I've got going in my tummy over the course of the month:
Chocolate Shake with Fiber
Vanilla Shake with Fiber
Lemon Pudding with Fiber
Vegetarian Sloppy Joe
Each of these items is pre-engineered to contain 200 cals and 1/3rd of my daily nutrients. I have graduated down from 4 of the above items a day to 3.
Items not pre-engineered but ok:
Torani Sugar Free Salted Caramel Coffee flavor
Torani Sugar Free Hazelnut Coffee flavor
Chocolate / Hazelnut Tea
and I've drank 2 - yes, 2, diet sodas
I'm at this strange junction. I miss food. I mean... I reaaaaallllllly miss food.... but I am also kind of afraid of it. I can handle feeding the kids. I can handle eating out with the family (although this weekend we had the longest meal ever at some brew house and I kind wanted to jump up and scream). Sometimes the smells get to me... like pizza... or Subway... or cookies. But for the most part. I am ok. When I have been hungry or feeling weak, I've let myself have that 4th meal replacement. Would rather do that than scarf down 1200 calories of nothing that would cause my system to have a complete panic in its ketogenic state.
I'm thinking another month of full meal replacements and we will see where I am at. I am scared to have options again. I don't trust myself. I've lost the weight before and I've gained it back. Clearly I am not good at making my own decisions! There is some element of beauty in just doing what you are told. I miss the social aspect of eating. Hubs and I were at a loss about how to celebrate our anniversary - normally we'd eat! My doctor says that in another month, I'll be dying for real food. Maybe.....
Here's where I am:
Total weight lost to date: 26.5 lbs
Weight to lose to goal: 31.5 lbs
Inches lost in my waist: 12 inches
Blood Pressure change: From 130/82 to 112/70
Total Cholesterol: 154 to 100
Triglycerides: 159 to 79
Have I mentioned I'm an emotional / stress eater? So, we're buying a house in August.
This is going to go well......