Seven years ago today you arrived as a blessing to us. You're arrival into this world wasn't without drama but with your first cries you serenaded us with your joy. From your first grasp on your daddy's finger you showed us what true love really meant.
(Jan. 28, 2008 - Right after birth. Holding Daddy's pinky in NICU)
As a baby, you fought for your independence but were stubborn in your ways. You loved to rock in your swing, happily independent - but you wouldn't take a bottle and would only have milk from me. You were a fiercely determined little one. You knew your people, you embraced your place.
We dressed you up. We remember every moment. You were our first. You made your Daddy a daddy and your Mommy a mommy. The days were cataloged. The growth was charted. The photos were scrapbooked. I remember the first time you laughed (in your carseat in Shakopee - we cried), I remember when you took your first steps (on my birthday in our condo in Madison), my heart burst with joy seeing you in your first Christmas program at Capitoland Children's center. There were so many moments and with each new step away from us, a new moment of independence and pride.
Each birthday is monumental in its own right, but this year I feel I have seen a jittery preschooler turn into a confident young lady. You are loyal, thoughtful, serious and silly. You love... deeply. But more than stuff, you love ideas and experiences and God. You are curious about life, about meaning, about the Spirit, about joy. I look at you now, and I see so much promise - innocent joy - graceful truth.
(Super excited to read Great Grandma Lewis's card - 3rd Birthday, 2011)
I am so proud to be your mom. There are days I don't feel qualified. I feel so unworthly that you - the gift of your smile - your presence and your love - have been given to me without condition. I worry that I say the wrong things, that I break your heart - that I don't even know that I am doing it. For each of those pains I've caused - seen and unseen - forgive me. You know, cause you've learned - None of us are perfect and I am not either. I am just trying, like you, to learn and to do a little bit better every day.
(Loving the steel slide at Rustler's Rooste - Phoenix, 2014)
(Very Brave - Got her ears pierced this week. January 2015)