Monday, August 30, 2010

The Before

It is obvious to anyone that looks at me, but I feel like I am confessing my biggest secret...

Hi. My name is Mara Lee Lewis. I am obese. I am 33 years old and I am carrying around an extra human being (and I don't mean one of my kids). I weigh 125lbs over the amount recommended by some very smart doctors for my weight and height. I will talk about it. I am going to force myself to talk about it. I have ignored it. I have rationalized it. I have laughed it off. I have lied to myself. I have lived in denial.

I am going to look in the mirror. I am going to look below my neck. It might get ugly around here before it gets better. Especially since this is only day 1 of what will be a long journey.

My Weight Goals:

Long Term: be a mom my girls will be proud of - ride bikes, swim laps, run without fear of all the jiggling, sit with my legs crossed comfortably - lose the muffin top, the muffin bottom, shit, lets just lose the muffin all together.
Dream size: 14/16

Short Term: create new habits, treat my body well, remember what a gift my body is for giving me life, love, and two beautiful babies, incorporate excercise into my life, realistic target size: 18/20

How I will do this:

Exercise 3 X per week either 30 Mins moderate exercise or 20 minutes jogging
2X week strength training

I will diary every item I eat.
I will cut out all sweets.
I will target 1350 calories per day.
I will be accountable for what passes my lips.

What else? I am going to take care of what God gave me. I have started an Obagi Nu Derm treatment including the Blender / Retin A products. I will be doing a couple of skin procedures to take care of some hormonal hangovers, ie. melasma spots.

That is the naked truth. Consider this my coming out party.


Cindy said...

Mara, I'm so excited for you!

Please don't cut out all sweets, though. What's life without a little sweetness? Everything in moderation. That's one thing I love about weight watchers - I can follow the plan and still have an occasional DQ blizzard.

Alli said...

Wow, I just read further down. You are such an amazing woman Mara bo Bara! Miss you and I am so proud of you!!! You'll do it, woman!!!